A Walk in the Woods – Guest post by Bev
May 13, 2011
After posting my musings on guidance/coincidence, I received this wonderful essay from Bev of http://playingwithbrokenglass.wordpress.com/. I post it here with Bev’s permission. I feel it makes for a meditation as well as food for thought, suitable not only for artists and iconographers, but for all who travel- and all of us are travelers through life. Thank you, Bev.
“A short story: There is a woods; large enough you can walk safely and far enough that your mind may wander, too, into places you treasure. You stride along, breeze in your hair, sun on your shoulders, a song or prayer and random thoughts keeping rhythm to your steps.
Choose one scenario: 1. you must see someone at the end of the walk and need to think about the meeting, or, 2. there is no one to meet, there is no urgency; this walk is for you.
By choosing #1, you will walk only half-seeing your surroundings: the clouds will scuttle by without you seeing animal shapes in them, you will not see the marks in the moist soil as prints of people, rabbits or ravens, you will not hear birds’ songs. Your mind is occupied, closed to inspiration. The walk was not a failure; simply, it was not creatively successful, not a “blast-off” moment that made you want to get back to your studio to draw and jot down your thoughts. But then, your goal had nothing to do with creativity.
By choosing #2, you will walk into a place full of possibilities. You are aware of your surroundings and all your senses take it in. You sit on a warm fallen log or pause by water and when you look around you will see colours you want to put into a work of art. You admire a pattern of leaves. You are thrilled by green foliage against the blue sky. If you meditate, or just sit still and enjoy the moment, you will begin to think afresh, unlike the thinking that goes in your studio. If you have an art problem or an abandoned theme stashed in the back of your mind waiting for solution, something you see, hear or think might bring it darting into the foreground. Unlocking it. You have let your mind free to open that door where creativity dwells, waiting.
Neither choice was wrong. Each had a purpose. One to go from point A to B to get the job done and the other to go from A to discovery. In the second case, it was about the trip, not the destination. If your mind is on the destination, you will not get anything during the trip.
I believe this is the crux of the situation you described. You did not go to Palm Sunday service in your usual place of worship, but were open to do something different. You chose a different church, not an unfamiliar place, but one you hadn’t seen through the same eyes before. You sat in the pew and literally saw something at the altar that spoke to you. A miracle? Perhaps. A miracle if you believe God knows our needs before we do and His hands guide us.
Marcel Proust said, “The voyage of discovery is not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes.” Our need is to have our eyes open so we see around us. Our need is to allow a higher power to guide us. In other words, it is not coincidence when we have inspiration. After all, the word inspiration is based on “in spir(it)”. (Bev Delyea, 04/27/11)
guidance or coincidence
May 13, 2011
I attended Palm Sunday in a new church- St Gabriel’s, which more fittingly could have been named Annunciation, as they had the bas relief of annunciation at the altar. In blue, gold and a touch of red- the three mainstay colors of my work. It’s a guidance of sorts- I have put aside the icon of Annunciation months ago- perhaps it’s time to go back to it. Or is it merely a coincidence?
Free Will
January 12, 2011
Free will is an interesting concept that I’ve explored time and time again.
This round is different however:
I feel like I realize what it means for the first time ever (though I think I say that each and every time!)
What I mean is that I no longer have a sense of urgency to write an icon that always accompanied my work -
I am free: free to walk away completely and free to choose to continue. Choice is a key word here:
I am given free will to make a commitment, no nudging, no sense of obligation.
There is an invitation, just like there is one each and every time I am about to start a work. Each and every time I, too, had been free to choose. THis time it is every more pronounced and profound.
It is as if I am to make an ever more deliberate decision, an ever more mystical commitment.
Not that I am considering to walk away- no, I am not. But the very idea of being able- surprisingly to many around me, I do not think I ever felt like I could leave iconography, it did not cross mind, I do not think I ever saw it as an option, a choice; though of course it always was! – the very idea of having a choice and exercising the free will to choose and to commit -
it is a mystery, a liberating freedom, a profound understanding of the co-creative process an icon truly is.
Merry Christmas!
January 7, 2011
We are always at One, however you’d like to define it- God, Universe, energy, being.
Whether we are aware of it or not at any given moment- we still are at One, always.
When I am not fully aware of this oneness, conscious and present to the flow of the divine river- I still am in it, I know it fully and profoundly, to the core of my being, know it deeply – yet cannot feel it.
When I do feel at One -
there is a qualitative difference to my life, my very existence-
it is as if I float several inches above ground, I smile with my eyes alone, I exhale joy.
My work shows it, seemingly still pieces of glass come alive, they cooperate and fall into place just so, the mystery is not a mystery but a way of being.
When this awareness recedes, I miss it, yet I no longer mourn it-
it is not lost, it is right here, just under the surface,
I merely need to build up my stamina to handle the vision of grace and beauty and peace for longer periods of time.
Peace and joy and awareness of being forever at One, awareness of being held in God’s hands lovingly and kindly always-
this I wish you today and always,
Merry Christmas!


